1) I want a clean pathology report (my first brain surgery was March 5, 2012).
2) I want to be able to draw a clock (I wasn’t able to at my first speech therapy session).
3) I want to be able to come up with 7 words that starts with any given letter.
I know that 2 and 3 are weird things to wish for, but they are legitimate desires when your brain has been cut into (literally).
Jesus wants something abnormal, too. In Matthew 19:16-21, a rich man asked Jesus what it took to be saved. For some reason, Jesus didn’t say, “Say this prayer.” He didn’t say, “Be baptized.” He didn’t even say, “Do everything that I tell you to do.”
Jesus answered, “You shall not murder, you shall not commit adultery, you shall not steal, you shall not give false testimony, honor your father and mother,” and “love your neighbor as yourself.” And then He continued, “If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.”
Many people have struggled with this passage, because they interpret this passage with implications that Christians should not be rich. Let me say that if you feel God calling you to give all of your possession to the poor, do it. I don’t think that this passage implies the necessity.
I believe that Jesus wants the rich man to give up his desires and follow Jesus. Jesus wants all of the rich man.
God wants us to trust Him with our wants and desires.
An interesting thing happened when I gave God my desires. God blessed me with His desires. God has given me peace about my future. God has given me a greater passion to encourage the brokenhearted. God has given me more than what I desired, but they look very different compared to my desires.
I believe that God wants to bless us. I say that with caution, because some have misunderstood God’s gifts. Some believe if they can determine how to pray and how to act, that we can convince God to give us specific gifts. That is not how my God works.
If that is how God works, why is there still a “hole in my head” where they took out the tumor during surgery? Do I need more faith?
I believe that God hasn’t completely healed me for His purposes. I am good with that, because I trust God with my present and my future. I don’t follow God for my wants. I follow God for God’s Glory. My biggest wish is I am used for the glory of God. That is why Jesus told the rich man to give up everything and follow Him.
What wish might God want from you?