Starting Over

 

“You’re an overcomer

Stay in the fight ’til the final round

You’re not going under

‘Cause God is holding you right now

You might be down for a moment

Feeling like it’s hopeless

That’s when he reminds you

That you’re an overcomer

You’re an overcomer”

If you come to my (Kendra’s) house, there are days that is song (Overcomer by Mandisa) is playing on repeat.  Chemo is hard, and I have it easier than others.  I don’t get nauseous.  I can control my intestinal pain.  (Water, fiber, and exercise does wonders).  But I hate it.    I feel so tired.  I don’t know how to to push myself.  I know I need rest, but if I give up, I get so discouraged.  

Recently, my sister-in-law called.  She asked me if I would be willing to speak at a fall retreat.  The theme would be endurance.  Although I didn’t tell her no, I find it to be ironic, as I looked around my messy house, with little desire to do anything about it.  Satan whispered, “You don’t know anything about endurance.  If you did, you would have a clean house.”

But the last five years I have learned to recognize his lies quicker.  I smiled, because I have great endurance, and I am still here fighting.  Somedays, I move slowly.  Somedays, I move too quickly.  Other days, it takes me all day to get motivated.  And somedays, I just need to learn from my mistakes and start all over again.  But I keep fighting.

Although, there are days that Satan tells me that I haven’t grown or that I am not making a difference, but I know those are lies.  I know that a wonderful, good Creator is working on me.  I know that Bible is speaking to me.

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might.  Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil.- Ephesians 6:10

1 I love the Lord, because He has heard my voice and my pleas for mercy.

2 Because He inclined His ear to me, therefore I will call on Him as long as I live.

3 The snares of death encompassed me; the pangs of Sheol laid hold on me; I suffered distress and anguish.

4 Then I called on the name of the Lord:  “O Lord, I pray, deliver my soul!”- Psalms 116:1-4

I can declare that I serve a good God who is making me into His masterpiece.  He wants to be working in your life too.  You are not alone.  Find someone who will support you.  Support others as well.  Because we are stronger together.  Depend on each others.  Just like Mandisa. In this video, Mandisa reveals how difficult life as been since she released “Overcomer” and how God brought her through it.

So I will keep fighting, and I ask you to help me.  Please pray for opportunities for me (and maybe you), to uncover our pain, and use it for the glory of Him.

If the link, didn’t work.  Trying copying and pasting:

http://abcnews.go.com/GMA/video/mandisa-opens-overcoming-depression-47020463

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