Two weeks ago, I went on a CIY (Christ In Youth) MOVE trip with our church’s youth group. On the last day, we did an encouragement circle. The idea of an encouragement circle is that one student or adult from the group stands in the middle and the group encourage them. Most of the encouragement I received referred to my strength.
Until recently (within the last year), I have never considered myself strong. As a child, I was never the athletic one. The only sport that I ever played was volleyball. The reason others wanted me to play was due to the fact that I attended a small school which was dependent on every female student for us to even have a team. What I didn’t know as a child is that athletic ability is only one kind of strength. There are physical, emotional and spiritual strengths which all only come from God.
Last month I started my chemo treatment for my brain tumor. This treatment requires that I take pill(s) everyday for five days in a row, and then I wait a while (generally 23 days) before starting the new cycle.
Today I am supposed to receive this a new cycle of chemo by mail; but this month, my doctor has prescribed me a larger dose of temozolomide (chemo). So this week, I am working hard as VBS director. Saturday, our church will have a community ice cream social. Sunday will be another busy day of church and hopefully youth group. Monday, I will start the next round of chemo which has the potential of being more intense than last month.
This is not how I would have written my life, but honestly I am excited to see God demonstrate His power and strength in me. Because I know without a doubt that I am strong only because of God. Without Him, I am weaker than a child that could only be on a sports team by default, but with Him I can endure and enjoy all things even things as stressful as VBS, parenting, and chemo treatment.
And wherever you find yourself, God wants to be your source of strength. Although He could, He rarely removes all problems. Often, His solution is to give whatever you need to endure just like He provided for Paul and myself.
Paul wrote in Philippians 4:12-13, “I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.”
God did not remove Paul’s hunger or suffering, but He did provide what Paul needed. God may or may not remove my tumor, but I know He will also provide for me. I also know that He wants to provide for you.
If you would like to testify to how God has provided for you. I encourage you to do so by commenting on this post.