I have a smart two-year-old. We often walk past a building that has four flags above it. The other day, my toddler declared, “four flags. Let’s count: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10. Four flags. That’s my girl. I am so proud to be her mom.
But my love for her isn’t dependent on her accomplishments. I have loved her since I learned of her existence. And one of my favorite times of the day includes her. She is much like her dad in that she wakes up slowly. While transitioning from asleep to awake, she dislikes the most things (even the outside which says a lot cause she loves being outside). When she wakes up from a nap (normally crying), we rock and listen to “Jesus music” (that is what she calls the CD).
Many days, I thank God for this time and pray that it continues. It is a time that I treasure. Not because she performs for me (in fact sometimes she just yells at me.) We just enjoy being together. (Or may I enjoy her presences and she enjoys the rocking motion).
This week, I was thanking God for this time with my daughter. I know how easily it could disappear. I could be too sick. She could not interested. We could be too busy. When God impressed on me, that He enjoys our time together. Not because of the things I do. Not because of how great I am, but just because He loves me.
God enjoys being in my presence that is why He created me.
That is a hard concept for me to grasp. I have no problem with idea that I need to enjoy time with God. The idea that God wants me is difficult for me. Sometimes, I don’t even want to be around me. I don’t do all the things I feel like I supposed to. This week, my husband encouraged me to find time to pursue an adoption. He wanted to know what I have done about that. I haven’t done much, and I really don’t have any good reasons why. I know I am discouraged, but that shouldn’t stop me.
But my point isn’t that I failed again (nothing new there), but that God still loves me.
Romans 5:8 says, “but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
Have you ever considered:
We, (Christians) are believe that Jesus had to die for our sins to be forgiven. The Bible says in Hebrews 9:22, “Indeed, under the law almost everything is purified with blood, and without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness of sins” (ESV). Sometimes, I assume that the world works this way just because, but where did the Law come from? It is reasonable to assume that God create the Law. Dr. Jason Lisle from Answer in Genesis says, “Natural laws exist because the universe has a Creator God who is logical and has imposed order on His universe.” That sounds more Biblical than the Law has dictated to God how the world would work. It would also seemed that God created the law knowing that we were not able to follow it. It would appear that God created a system where Jesus would have be our sacrifice.
In theory, God could have created the law differently, but he intentionally choose this way. Now, this isn’t how I would have created the world and I don’t know why He created it this way. I suspect that God created the law this way, because He wanted us to know that He loves us. He didn’t just love us, but He created a system where He would show His great love. He wanted us to know His love. That is why we were created and why the Bible is written.
As I have done research into adoption, I have read about parents that love their children enough to say that my child would be best without me. They have given up their relationship with their child for the good of the child. That is love. To be more concerned about the child that the parents desire. It is possible that God could have created a world and left it to its own demise, but God has chosen to love us actively. He still wants a relationship with us. He pursues us.
We can experience God. We can experience His Presence through worship. How cool is that!! Considering how much I enjoy my daughter’s presence, I can only imagine how much God enjoys ours. Why else would He allow His son to die?
When you are discouraged, because you feel like you are not good enough. Remember that God choose to make you. He knew you and knew who you would become, and He still created you to love you. He wants to show you His love so that you could show the rest of the world. He really does love us.
Go and show that unconditional love to the rest of the world