A few months ago, I (Kendra) thought I had a doctor’s appointment. When I arrived, the doctor wasn’t in. Apparently, they tried to call me to reschedule, but somehow I missed it.
I also needed a TB test. I scheduled a doctor’s appointment. She refused to do it, because I didn’t talk to my neuro-oncologist about the TB test interacting with the chemo. So after I got cleared from neuro-oncologist’s nurse, I scheduled another appointment. When I went to have it done, the ladies at the front desk rescheduled me, because the first lady didn’t do it correctly. After two appointments, still no TB test.
During the first three rounds of chemo in 2017, my daughter has been sick for each one. The first round, my husband was sick as well.
Things don’t always go as you expect.
But I have hope, because these things didn’t surprise my God. In fact, although I would not say He caused them or that they are good, my God is using them for good. (Romans 8:28) But we shouldn’t continually quote Romans 8:28 without its context.
- The whole of creation is “groaning together” (verse 22). Romans 8:28 isn’t about avoiding pain in this world.
- In verse 23-25, Paul writes about waiting and hoping for “the redemption of our bodies.” And in verse 26, Paul talks about “the Spirit helps us in our weakness.” I feel weak when I have to wait for the promises of God. Paul encourages to keep hoping.
- In verse 27, Paul wrote “intercedes for the saints according to the will of God.” This isn’t about my will or yours; it is about the will of God.
- Verse 29 says that our purpose is to be “to be conformed to the image of his Son.” Sometimes we want to define good without considering, “Is this helping me or others to be ‘conformed to the image of his Son’?” Maybe you need this struggle to become like Jesus.
So when life isn’t as you expect (or even more painful than you expect)– Praise God!! You have an opportunity to become more like Christ and honor Him. (But trust me, I wasn’t thinking this way on the way home from the doctor).
I am a work in progress. God is forming me to be like Jesus. Therefore, I know it is good.