Tired

 

“Tired” ?

 

I feel tired.  So. Very. Tired. I’ve felt tired for a couple weeks now. Sure, there’s reasons for it. I’m working too much, I’m filling weekends with obligations instead of rest, I haven’t had a proper Sabbath, and life just doesn’t seem to want to take a break. And I’m not just physically tired. I’m mentally tired, as work responsibilities and personal relationships and a never ending to do list, all while trying to keep up with loved ones flips through my head in an unceasing loop. I’m emotionally tired as I watch the world fill with more anger and hate and intolerance and the response of those outraged by all that I’ve just mentioned.

 

I’m just plain tuckered out, y’all. Perchance you can relate?

 

We can’t just stop though, can we? There’s just too much that has to be carried on that we can’t stop.

 

Something interesting came about the past couple days in the midst of my being tuckered out.  God still presented opportunities for me to do Kingdom work. Sometimes, I didn’t realize what was happening until I was in the midst of it actually happening. But I found my prayers looking something like this…

 

“God, I don’t have the energy for this. Please, not today.”

“I really don’t want to be here. Would You make something happen so it’ll happen another day?”

“God, there is no way I can get through this.”

 

And I think that’s the point. It was in those situations, when I was begging God to put it off to another day or telling Him how tired I am (as if He didn’t know), that I found myself not only sustained but energized, because the Spirit was working. He was still using me. Perhaps something was trying to emphasize how tired I am as a distraction so I couldn’t participate in my Lord’s plans that I didn’t know of yet.

 

Background info: I set a New Year’s resolution to read, study, and put into practice one spiritual discipline per month this year.  March’s discipline: fasting, focusing on depriving myself of physical energy intake and depending on God to sustain me. Jesus says to His disciples, just after talking to the woman at the well, “I have a kind of food you know nothing about…My nourishment comes from doing the will of God…” (John 4)

 

I don’t say this expecting to put a tiny bandaid on a gaping wound and expect everything to suddenly be hunkydory. I know that I am in need of rest. And I have planned a day coming up. But like many things, this isn’t a one-time fix.

 

When the time comes that you feel completely tuckered out and that there’s nothing more you can give, tell Him about it. “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank HIm for all He has done.” Philippians 4:6. He knows you’re tired.  Ask for His help in that moment. Our loving Father doesn’t ignore His children. Your tiredness, your distractions, your frustrations, they may be trying to draw your attention away from something the Spirit is calling you to in the moment.

 

But you can’t continue forever tuckered out and not making time to rest. Make sure it’s not just physical, but emotional and mental rest too. You may be finding yourself needing a break from social media and the news for awhile, like myself. For me, healthy rest is sleeping in without an alarm, spending a good long time reading my Bible and chatting with God, and having no to do list, other than the absolute necessities (chores do not count…but I know that is a luxury few have). Make time for rest, whatever works best for you;

 

Just one more thought to hopefully encourage you in the upcoming week. I felt reminiscent as I was driving the other day, and I put in an old Relient K CD from my high school days. The lyrics fit perfectly with this post (that I hadn’t even been able to think of up to that point).

 

Never underestimate my Jesus.

You’re telling me that there’s no hope;

I’m telling you, you’re wrong.

Never underestimate my Jesus.

When the world around you crumbles,

He will be strong.

He will be strong.

 

God’s grace and peace be with you all as you persevere, one day at a time.

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