When I was in high school, a friend of mine knocked on my door in the middle of the night. Their house was on fire, and they needed our help. We tried to help them. But in all honesty, there wasn’t much that we could do. So I spent the next few hours just watching their house be destroyed. I was afraid. I realized how little control I really had. I couldn’t save their house. I couldn’t make my friend feel better. There was little that I could do, and that scared me. And for weeks, I struggled sleeping, because I knew I didn’t have control.
Recently, that fear came over me again. After spending some time with friends, my family came home to find a lot of water around our house. We didn’t know where it was safe to park our car; both of the roads around our house were covered with water, and we didn’t know if more water was coming. So my husband walked through the water to our house. In some places, the water come up to his knees. The water was also gushing under our shed door, into the sewer drain, and against the foundation of our house.
I now the picture above isn’t very good, since it was taken outside in the dark. The picture is the reflection of our house in the water on our driveway which was mostly covered.
My husband choose to stay in our home, and sent my daughter and me to our friends’ house. As I was trying to sleep, I remembered the fear that I experienced in high school: the fear that reminds me that I am not in control. The fear that, even though I could do nothing, wouldn’t let me sleep.
Fear can be powerful. Often, it seems to control me.
But fear doesn’t have to control us.
This week, I am scheduled for another MRI and doctor’s appointment. Although, I think I will be a little nervous about the MRI and the appointment associated with it, right now, fear doesn’t control me.
I know that Satan often brings fear when I least expect it, but for the time being, I am praising God for His “peace that surpasses all understanding.”
I thank God for His Word, which says in Philippians 4:4-7:
Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
I am praising God that He knows the desires of my heart, and He is going to do what is best. Because I trust Jesus, I don’t have to worry. I can sleep with peace, knowing that all I have to do is be thankful and let my request be made known to God. I trust that God will take care of me just like He has done in the past. Just like He did when our yard was covered with water.