🎶Wish we could turn back time to the good old days when our mamas sang us to sleep but now we’re stressed out🎶

I miss the days when I wasn’t expected to know anything.  I recently turned 30 years old.  You expect a 30-year-old to know a thing or two about the world and stuff… this 30-year-old… well, not so much.  Oh, I can adult successfully a few things. I’m paying off my debt from college and my first grown-up car, my bills are handled; I’m even less afraid to call medical offices and make an appointment for myself!  Note, *less* afraid.

Now I’m an “adult.” Adults know stuff.  At least, they’re expected to know the stuff.  I don’t know all of what the stuff entails, but there was no high school nor collegiate course on “Adultly Things You Need To Know.” Adulting is very on-the-job training. That part I have indeed figured out.

“Never stop learning” is a phrase very strongly connected with my career, in my opinion.  I heard this regularly when I was in college.  At the time I thought, “Well, duh. I don’t know anything, so of course I want to always be learning more!” It was nice also because everyone around me knew I was young and stupid, for most of them were also young and stupid!  We weren’t expected to know much.

The more I figure out about the world and adulting in it, the more I start to think I have nothing else to learn.  Goodbye humility, hello pride. It’s as subtle as the sun setting while watching a movie.  You happen to look up and realize you’re in complete darkness, except for the faux light you’ve been staring at that’s now giving you a headache.

Interestingly, when we think we know stuff, we can’t be told otherwise.  Oh, trust me. It’s a very slippery slope, starting with, “OK, I think I’ve got the hang of this, ” to “I’ve totally got this down,” then can result in a haughty, “I know everything there is to know.” We even think we can tell God what we know ’cause obviously we know more than He does.

In the beginning of Isaiah 66, God says, “I will bless those who have humble and contrite hearts, who tremble at my word. But those who choose their own ways— delighting in their detestable sins— will not have their offerings accepted.” Since God is the same yesterday, today, and forever, I do believe this prideful all-knowingness I fall into sometimes is not the attitude He delights in.

“You must have the same attitude that Christ Jesus had. Though he was God, he did not think of equality with God as something to cling to. Instead, he gave up his divine privileges; he took the humble position of a slave and was born as a human being. When he appeared in human form, he humbled himself in obedience to God and died a criminal’s death on a cross.” ‭Philippians‬ ‭2:5-8‬ ‭NLT‬‬

Jesus Himself said there are things the Father alone knows.  If the Son of God is humble and knows His place, why should I think myself to know better than Him?   I may know a little more about random Disney trivia than someone, but they may possess more knowledge about classic cartoons.  These are the important things, yaknow 😏 I’m still figuring out what I’m supposed to know as an adult and where I can remain less-young-but-still-pretty-stupid-sometimes.

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