Five years ago this month, I (Kendra) started praying for healing.  It was while we were at my in-laws to celebrate Christmas that I had my first seizure, which led to a scan that found my tumor.

Although I was scared, I was convinced that my God would heal me.  We prayed for healing.  We asked other people to pray with us.  We prayed for healing again.

Every time I had a scan, I was hopeful that God would show His power and eliminate any sign of disease.  Not only did I want to be healed, I didn’t want to deal with it at all.  A tumor was NOT in my dream.

Repeatedly, the question was raised “Are you sure that your healing would be best?”  I knew that story of Hezekiah because he was healed, his son was born.  His son became of the one worst kings, and Israel suffered.

For a while, I quit praying for healing.  I didn’t want others to suffer because I wanted to live.

I prayed that God would work, and He did that.  He allowed me to have conversations that I would never have imagined.  He taught me about prayer.  He convicted me of my idolatry.  He has allowed me to experience His gifts.

He has opened my eyes.  Often people don’t think God is working, because they are searching for the wrong fruit.  We want safety, comfort, our dreams, etc.  While we are searching for these things, we miss His love, joy, peace.  Sometimes, we even miss God.

My Christmas prayer is that I won’t miss God’s work, because I expect something different.  I don’t want to be like the Israelite.  They missed Jesus even though they were looking for their Messiah, just because Jesus looked different than they expected.

I am also praying for opportunities to share what I have learned.  Although I have never considered myself a public speaker, God has given me an encouraging story that I want to share for His Glory.  I don’t know what God’s plan looks like, but I trust God to reveal it in His timing.  

I am also praying that you will learn to look for God’s gifts (rather than what you think you want).  God’s gifts are so wonderful, I don’t want you to miss out because you were looking for something else.  

Please join me in these prayers, and expect God to work in ways that only He can.
Ephesians 3:20-21 Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.

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  1. Wonderfully put – I only began to experience the true joy of God’s love when I learnt to stop telling him how to answer my prayers, instead to trust in his love and power, knowing that he will always answer my prayers according to his will.

    Thank you for a great post.

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