Uncontrollable tears…

Quiet tears…

Painful tears…

A few weeks ago, my Sunday school teacher had warned me that he was going to teach on prayer.  He asked if it would be okay to pray for me as a class.  I appreciate all the prayers that I can get.  I thought I had prepared myself, but I was wrong.

And the tears came, and I couldn’t stop them.

I hadn’t prepared for the flashbacks of emotions.  Not only did my Sunday school class pray for me, they also prayed for a friend.  My friend is pregnant with twins, and there are complications.

As I tried to pray for my friend, I remember the fear that comes with pregnancy.  I remember just wanting my babies to be healthy.  I wanted the opportunity to teach them about all the good things God has given us in this world.  I feared the unknown.  And I wouldn’t be surprised if my friend is feeling the same emotions now.

And so, for my friend, I wanted to take away her fear.  I wanted to tell her that God will make her children grow.  I wanted to tell her not to fear the unknown, that I had a solution.

But I don’t have a solution.

I can’t make fear go away.  All I have learned in the last six years is keep moving towards God, in spite of the fear.  When you do, there is an unexplainable peace that only comes when we trust God.

Trust that the big picture is beautiful.

Trust that the lessons are worth the pain.

Trust that God will never leave you alone.

Trust that God will make you stronger than you think.

Trust that Jesus provides the abundant life.

Trust God’s Word:

Psalm 33:20-22 Our soul waits for the Lord; he is our help and our shield.  For our heart is glad in him, because we trust in his holy name.  Let your steadfast love, O Lord, be upon us, even as we hope in you.

Psalm 37:3-5 Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness, Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act.

Psalm 56:3-4 When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I shall not be afraid. What can flesh do to me?

Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord, and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones.

I wish I could tell her that if she trusts God, He will change her situation, but God doesn’t promise that.  If she will trust God, he will change her perspective and show Himself in this situation.  Remember that Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego truly experience the presence of God with the fire.  I doubt they were crying uncontrollable tears.

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